Just Great
The last 12 months have been pretty up and down for me. Pretty much nothing I have planned on or worked for has panned out. On the other hand there have also been some really great things that have happened and for the most part they have been last minute opportunities that have come up and worked out great. Since about June I have known that I would need to come to Maine to take care of my Mom. No problem, happy to do it. The only thing required of me is that I not be sick. No problem, I can’t remember the last time I was sick. Basically as a result of the chemo and bone marrow transplant she has no immune system at the moment. Literally a common cold could kill her. I arrived last night feeling just fine (other than some sore legs). Luckily she was still awake when I arrived so I got to see and talk to her a bit. She looks better than I expected but she is very weak. I was very happy to see her and be here. I was looking forward to spending time with her, playing Scrabble, watching movies, or just talking. I wake up this morning and I have a little scratch in my throat. No worries I think probably just a little dehydrated from the day before. After I eat breakfast and drink some juice I will be fine. Usually when I get sick it hits me all at once. I can be fine and 15 minutes later I am wiped out. That is what happened today. I have not been sick in a very long time. Basically what this means is I can’t be around my Mom at all. The doctor wrote me a script for some penicillian and says that if I fell better in 48 hours then I can go back in the house, if not it means I have a virus and might as well get back on a plane to Utah. Fucking great. The one time my Mom needs me and I am completely useless to everyone. My tounge is coated, my throat is bright red and I have a fever. I am in quarantine at my Dad’s house until we know whats up. In the meantime my brother who was supposed to leave tomorrow is staying. He is not amused. No one is. I am so bummed right now I can’t even think. The good news is that I usually feel better as quick as I get sick so I am hopeful. Right now I would trade anything good that will ever happen to me again to get ride of this and be able to help my Mom. Anyone looking to buy a soul?
Some good news. Wendy sent a care package with some kick ass Trader Joes soup, a box of Emergen C, and some Chariman Meow shirts and pins that arrived today. My Mom called me to say it was some of the best soup she ever tasted. Thanks Wendy! I am truely blessed to have such awesome friends. You all rock!
